second baby fomo?

august turned one in october. when he was born, i had a lot of people i was either friends with or knew through acquaintances or social channels who also welcome their first baby. it's now 15 months later, and 95% of those people are all pregnant with their second baby. i feel equal parts relieved that that's not me having another baby right now, but also wondering if i'm missing out or making a mistake.

before we had kids we knew we wanted to have a few years between them. we are not people who would thrive with 'two under two'. when august was born, we had our eyes fixated on how we were going to get back our life in the fastest and healthiest way possible. and we did a pretty good job!

and now that we have a year of parenting under our belts, things are really cruising along and we all feel good and happy and healthy. the thought of welcoming another baby  feels truly insane to me. and yet... so many are doing it!

i know it's all personal preference. but for some reason i can't help thinking and wondering if i'm messing up by not having another baby right now. will i regret this later? will august wish he had a sibling that was closer in age to him??

while we did wait a while to have kids after getting married, i'm still only 30 (almost 31...!!) and i have a few years before i need to think about fertility and 'geriatric pregnancies'.

for now, i think i'll just focus on my super fun and energetic toddler and soak up these moments and days where we can give all our love to him.